Uncovering Buried Emotions

Have you ever been in the middle of a work out and felt this wave of emotion come over you?  You know that overwhelming feeling to start crying?  I have had that happen a few times and for the longest time I wondered, "what the heck and where did that come from".  I knew that it wasn't because I was overly tired, or pushing to hard, or even upset about something to begin with.  But what was it?  Why did I suddenly feel like I was going to burst into tears?   Those hurts, offenses, pains that I had stuffed away with food so I didn't have to deal with them or show them to anyone were coming to the surface.  While working out I was uncovering  those buried emotions that have been so long in the grave that I had forgotten they were even there.  Though conscience I wasn't aware of them, while I was working out something else was working in my spirit/soul whatever you want to call it.

 If you're an emotional eater, like myself, then you should be aware that what you are doing when you are stuffing your face is just stuffing those emotions that you don't want to deal with at the moment.  Whither they are sad, anger, boredom, hurt, happy, they are all the same.  And at some point you are going to have to deal with them.  Wither you like it or not they will resurface.  I for one would so much rather deal with them while in the process of getting myself healthier, then on a day when I'm not expecting them to hit me in the face.  That can get really ugly. 

So how do we start to deal with those internal issues?  One step at a time.  Part of this process to get healthy has to be facing the issues that got us to the unhealthy place that we are in now.  We have to resolve those things of the past or it will do us no good.  We can eat all the right things, work out till we are exhausted and even lose the weight but if those internal issues are still keeping our minds and spirits unhealthy we will ultimately go right back to where we are now at some point.  And if those things are making your soul (mind and spirit) unhealthy then wouldn't we want to fix that as well anyway. 

So hear goes, a personal moment.  My issues began when I was 9 years old.  When my father began molesting me.  Of course he said it was our secret and that I couldn't tell anyone.  So what does a 9 year old do when she feels violated, trapped and alone?  This one ate.  I stuffed all those emotions and fears down with food.  I've hid behind food since.  When I'm bored, tired, upset, whatever....food.  So now we have to face those issues and deal with them and then move on.  Forgiving those who have hurt you, letting go of the hurt and anger, and moving on in a healthy direction.  Would love to hear your thoughts and your stories.